2015 turned out to be a crazy year—and de-stressing often took priority over blogging.
It’s funny how much of a difference a year makes. It was just over a year ago that I wrote a post just like this, explaining that so many good things were happening in my life that I didn’t have time to focus on LGBTeen. I had a new job, my own apartment, a developing dating life and I was slowly becoming more secure and open with my gender identity.
I must have jinxed myself with that post because before I knew it, everything went to shit.
In the time since that post, so much has happened:
- Work got almost unbearably busy and stressful
- I broke up with the first person I ever seriously dated
- I started experiencing extreme gender dysphoria
- My mental health issues came to a head
- My grandmother’s health started going south
- Most recently, my grandmother passed away
Needless to say, going through so much real-life stuff made working on my various side-projects, including LGBTeen, seem silly. I had to focus on dealing with these personal issues before I could worry about doing anything else. Even though I’m still working on some stuff and I have a few fresh wounds, I’m determined to get over these obstacles and move forward with my life—and all my passion projects—in 2016. (I’m already inspired enough that I created a new blog, Queerish, for LGBT comedy and satire.)
When I wrote my last letter from the editor, I framed the events in my life as an example of a trans person living a full and happy life. Well, if that’s the case, this more recent turn can be framed as an example of a few things:
- Cliche as it is, those good times don’t last forever, so you have to enjoy them while they do last. So I’m glad I took a break from blogging to do that.
- Even though the good things don’t last forever, the bad times don’t, either. And even though I’m still struggling, I’ve already worked through some of those issues and am feeling a lot better.
- Having a hobby—like blogging!—can help take your mind off of your stressors. I haven’t published anything on here in awhile, but I’ve been editing some old articles I haven’t posted yet and brainstorming new ideas. It’s inspiring and gives me something to look forward to even when life is crazy.
So that’s where I’m at. I still, deep down, imagine this blog taking off in a big way. But until then, this blog will remain a fun side project for me. But that shouldn’t be an issue—I’m happy to see that our site visits have remained fairly consistent, despite the lack of recent posts. It seems you all have been enjoying this blog for what it is.
That’s kind of a good metaphor for where I’m at with life, and something else I’ve learned from my crazy year—I’m just enjoying everything for what it is.